Much higher now
Overwhelmed by excitement
his feet followed awaiting path
welcoming confusion with a smile
shielding the unknown anxiety.
It proved unrecognisable to fellow living
the ones who are dead inside
their unaware ignorance fooling only themselves.
If only they had known
faith could have spoken a new tongue
even for a day
then they may not be so fast to condemn
and he would pursue to endure.
Stepping on the platform
it shook only a little
but his immaturity was of delight
his life shook much more than this.
The bars seemed closer now
finally in arms reach
anticipation filled every detail
within his physique.
A fulfillment he longed to hold since birth
shaking now only from belief.
The bars were cold.
Should he look back?
What would be the gain?
Forward is right ahead.
Nearing in the passing of time in heights of fear
joy is the only replacement.
- Timid a girl emerged from sleep
empty confusion surrounded her
unanswered desire crushing the only love she had ever known
from the man she never met.
Her world falling low into a bleak abyss
His world soaring high into an illuminated bliss
The stars will sparkle forevermore
Ainey WOW! another masterpiece! this one is really challenging to me girl!! :D great job! i am pretty sure that the first part can have two meanings. One, Michael getting ready for his concerts. Two, Michael getting ready to leave.. :( this just occurred to me: you wrote "Overwhelmed by excitement, his feet followed awaiting path" his feet was ready to go, but
ReplyDelete"welcoming confusion with a smile" tells me that even though his feet was ready to go, the rest of him was confused? if you take this in the "he's leaving" way, it could mean, his body was ready to pass on.. but his spirit was confused.. should i go? should i stay?
Or, Should he do a concert? should he scrape the idea? But he still persevered, this could still mean that he was surely leaving.. leacing this world.. Or, he was surely going on with his concerts. with a smile, with endurance.
"It proved unrecognisable to fellow living/ the ones who were dead inside/ their unaware ignorance fooling only themselves"
I loved how you brought your own situation here. it seems to me that this maybe has something to do with the "confrontation"?? but how true: both you and Michael faced things that were similar.. people who didn't understand passion, who ridiculed you both.
"if only they had know/ faith could have spoken a new tongue/ even for a day/ then they may not be so fast to condemn/ and he would pursue to endure."
girl do you realise how these lines have two meanings grammatically? one is that if they had known that faith could speak a new tongue--> if only they knew that faith could bring about a change, an achievement, especially in michael's case, because he believed that after all these years he could bring love and awarenesss back into the world. his faith helped him to endure and believe!
the other is, if only they had known, faith could have spoken a new tongue--> if only they knew and understood him, they could have had faith in him and it would have given him hope to pursue.
"stepping on the platform/ it only shook a little/ but his immaturity was of delight/ his life shook much higher than this"
this brings to mind a moment in the movie: the cherry picker! :D it also makes one wonder, the irony, the same situation in his life: how he dealt with his life in the same way. when the cherry picker (life) shook with hatred and shame and he nearly lost balance and was scared to fall, he still managed to smile and believe in love (delightful immaturity) to have a childlike naive belief that everything will be alright, that truth will win?
which brings us to the next part, that he believes all will be rightbecause the bars are right there for him to hold on! now they are within arms reach. a way for him to hold on, something for him to live for, a way to keep from falling, a sort of redemption in the World's eyes. the Bar could be Love. He was so near reaching that bar: spreading love through his through his concerts. giving love back to the world, holding on to love to maintain hois balance and strength?
"a fulfillment he longed to hold since birth" this line further confirms that meaning to me.. since Love is what Michael has been about for so long.. since his birth. "shaking now only from belief"-- this shaking he could endure, any hardship he could take, because love is now there to support him..
"the bar was cold." what a sudden gripping line! he finally reached love, but it was cold. why was that? you may not have meant it this way, but this thought occurred to me and it maybe an interesting theory to you.
own disappointment of the cold Bar now.. that is empty since Michael won't hold it anymore.. :(
*scrape those last two lines*
ReplyDelete*interesting theory to you. He found his love.. he finally reached it.. but if was a different love from what he expected.. not the screaming fans.. after he was gone, he came into the love of the Divine. and he wanted to share it with those who love him.. but their love feels so cold, riddled with streaks of sorrow, tarnishing the warm light of love.
in other ways, did the coldness mean death? disappointment?
He can't look back anymore. He couldn't do it anymore, he was not able to fulfill his dream. but he has to move forward..
"nearing in the passing of time" "in heights of fear" do you reference it to his passing, girl?
his fear (unsurity of receptance) has been transformed into joy and freedom..
"timid a girl emerged from sleep/ empty confusion surrounded her" sleep here does it mean comfort? comfort in the knowledge that Michael was gonna come back and achieve once again.. but suddenly, you seem to have been jolted awake. with the knowledge that he won't be coming, he is gone! your expectations, your anticipations, excitement.. are now just confusion like sudden awakening from sleep. which is real and which is a dream?
"unanswered desire" could be your wish to see him, feel him, dream about him, and it crushes your love? love=comfort and expectaion. and now you feel such a loss, that is why it feels crushed.. "from the man she never met" this line is so romantic.. the only love, from a man she never met.
"her world falling low into a bleak abyss/ his world soaring high into an illuminated bliss" when the disappointment and hurt and sorrow sinks in so deeply, you feel like you're fallin and falling into a pit.
however like always, you have a little bit of hope shining through.. you world is crashing down, but his is soaring.. and he will sparkle as stars for ever.. and you let this give you hope.. that he will one day pull you up and take you with him.
Stars sparkle forever more, just like his love.
oh aine! i am so worried that my analysis is bad.. but you know i love this work it is so deep and challenging and so sad.. i love it.. you've once again proven that you are a great writer girl. (:
You friend from Singapore,
Mena(:
All the love to you:D
My dear,
ReplyDeleteI feel kinda speechless in front of such a beautiful piece of writing!
All I need to say is that I feel so happy to believe in the same things you do about Michael! You know, those really special things about him and what he means to us!
I can imagine him getting out of the cherrypicker like he's in the pic and arriving in heaven dressed the way I said yesterday..all in white, barefoot, peaceful face, like a natural transformation, cause we know there's something special about him..so special that it can even be explained here!
I'm so, but sooo glad we think the same way, that we are really alive inside and are blessed to have been touched for this man's love!
I'm glad we weren't left behind as he steps into heaven...we walked side by side with him, holding hands...but we didn't say goodbye..maybe..see you soon..and we had to let him go...
And somehow we are now standing by heaven's door...waiting for a new sweet meeting!
It's not that I wanna leave this world...it's like I've been living to meet him again!
Although it seems a little crazy, I know somehow you understand me...
U know the feeling!
Keep writing my best writer!!
Love ya L.S.!
P.Y.T.